I cant quiet explain it, or maybe I can. I CHOOSE not to. This time, everything in my life is secret. No one, absolutely no one in this world knows enough about me to know anything. There is no one who knows all of me, and with the little I tell people about me, they cant think bad about me. I show what I want. I feel things, wow. I see things, wow. Its opening up to a new way of being and at this very moment, its all perfection. Its beautiful music, orchestrated madness. I feel enveloped in a sense of security, what are these new sensations? Intrigued by fire, willing to get burned by my senses. It fell into place so effortlessly and suddenly, as if by magic, I had become a mystery. Its easy to be happy with people when you dont have to deal with too much of them. My focus becomes to make their day happier, put a smile on THEIR face.
Note to self : make time for your girlfriends, they love you. I have been neglectful of so many people, I am aware. But i feel that this was a road I had to travel and travel alone. The sad thing is I'm not sure the mysterious girl will ever let her guards down. I am ready to take it to the next level, each day is an adventure, and yes, maybe I WILL document it, before each day becomes a blur, when the last few weeks of my life have been everything but. I have heard words that sting, that heal, that cause yearning, passion, lust and desire. Ive taste freedom, security and understanding. I have found strength within me and weakness without. I feel I have been too clear already in a matter yet so obscure to many.
Sometimes I wonder why I dont share, am I embarrassed? Or is it simple a personal phase of mine, where I know what people would think and regardless I wouldnt change a thing about my perfect life <3 :)
International Women of Mystery :P :D
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