Something Special

This is really old but I thought I would compile my writing here anyway..

Something Special

He brakes me, he hurts me with such ease
He uses me but brings me to my knees
A touch so cold, he knows how to tease
broken and bruised and yet begging please

Please show me how to be so cold
What about you never gets old
To hide my humanity and only be this
Just a look, a fuck and a goodbye kiss

Teach me how to loose all of me
Please myself and let the rest just be
To brake and yet not be broken
Train my emotions to never be awoken

Take all of me and leave me less than whole
Leave me bleeding and let death take it's toll.
He has me wrapped around his finger, choking for air
But once he gets his, he zips up and doesn't care.

I try so hard to be different than the rest
To stand out some how, for once be the best
I open my legs, hoping he'll open his heart
But after each time he grins and says "honey get smart"

And yet I let him do this, use me like a whore
Lying naked and vulerable as he slams the door.
But tonight i gave him something especially from me,
Alhough I'm not a hooker getting paid
I gave him something special,
I hope he likes AIDS.

-written by Doyel