Everyone Says

Sometimes I wonder who actually knows me BUT me.
I feel like everyone wants the best for me, but I dont know what that even means anymore. I "should" be happy, I would be "stupid" to let this guy go. That's all I hear. I hear how if I don't cease this opportunity I would be letting go for the "best thing that ever happened to me". If there is one thing I learned from Daniel is that I will NEVER ever ever let people dictate MY life. I have to figure out MY path for me. So why then? Here are all these people that love me telling me that THIS is the guy for me. And I look at him, and he is nice, he is respectful, he opens car doors for me, we have fun, but what about that spark?
He could never break my heart, cause I guess I could never give it to him. He could never share that connection I had with Daniel. I am confused. Why does my mom tell me to give him a shot? Why are my friends so in love with him? I think about how I wanted Di to be with Aldo. I look at their relationship from the outside, not as the connection, but how he treats her. He treats her with love and respect and I am glad. But is that a good enough reason to be with someone? He listens to her and so does this guy, he listens to me. But his advice, I just don't agree. He knows me so well but just the parts I care to show him. He can read me so well as my friends say, but can he really? Whats the difference between a good friend and a boyfriend? The spark. Not how he treats her, cause Eduardo treats me well too. Not simply because of that am I going to go running into his arms. Julio hears me out too, but what about that spark? So how do I force it? And why oh why should I spend time with the wrong guy - funny how I can blatantly write out those words as if they were the truth - if that means the right guy might slip past.
I have a job interview, finally! And I happen to think I am perfect for the job. It gives me the opportunity to meet international people, enjoy the holidays I have crazed for so long, I would be in my comfort zone because I have worked at a University before and best of all, they pay for my masters in Education - my ticket to freedom.
Why is MY heart telling me to be alone? I don't feel healed. I enjoy going out, and meeting people. I just can't give my heart away until I get it back from Daniel in its entirety. I don't want to hold myself back. Isn't the beauty of being single being able to go where you want, when you want, with who you want? If I am not with Daniel, then I want to be able to pack up my stuff and leave. I want to wake up one morning and want to taste new flavours of the world. I like being able to say "Daniel". Sometimes I wonder if he is simply a replacement for Daniel. A Freudian slip  - those silly insights as to how your mind is working. I catch myself wanting to call him Daniel about ten times a day. I wonder what that means? Was I simply used to anyone that showed me attention being called Daniel? Or is my heart yelling out a name for a reason?
Everyone says I should move on.
Everyone says this guy is better.
Everyone says everyone says everyone says,
What does DOYEL say?