It was crazy how it all fell down in an instant. One moment it was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen. I was sitting up watching the sky, the water glistening and everything was serene. And suddenly, suddenly it wasnt comfortable anymore. It was so vast, I was so tiny, so insignificant and I felt as though I didnt matter at all.
He was on the hammock but he got up and walked over to me and hugged me. I tried to smile and hold back my tears and gasped out " I am a little emo right not" between tears.
He asked what that was.
I couldn't answer.
He asked me what was on my mind. I tried to tell him but I burst into tears. He hugged me from behind while we both looked out at the sea and he said "dont cry, I dont want it to rain" I giggled.
The moment passed. Nothing happened but it was what I needed.
Today I felt an intense connection with a book. From how I found it, to to words, to the ideas and emotions, it moves me. I sat on the bus, reading each word captivated by the feelings that resonated a mirror heart. Each word filled with vivacity and crude truth in sharp shards. in less than two pages, I had to shut the book. I was overwhelmed with a sense of sadness. I hurt for me. For what I had endured all this time. I hurt to see what I had willingly put myself through. I hurt for all the girls who have ever felt what I have felt. I hurt for the girls who, like me, thought they were the only ones. My heart was just filled with hurt and I wept uncontrollably for an hour. I was unaware of the passage of time, blinded by deep felt hurt. I have never felt something like that before.
Two states of just being utterly overwhelmed.
And somehow this song fits in somewhere within all that madness.. I dont know how yet.
Born to run, baby run like a stream down a mountainside
With the wind in my back I don't ever even bat an eye
Just know it was you all along who had a hold of my heart
But the demon and me were the best of friends from the start
He was on the hammock but he got up and walked over to me and hugged me. I tried to smile and hold back my tears and gasped out " I am a little emo right not" between tears.
He asked what that was.
I couldn't answer.
He asked me what was on my mind. I tried to tell him but I burst into tears. He hugged me from behind while we both looked out at the sea and he said "dont cry, I dont want it to rain" I giggled.
The moment passed. Nothing happened but it was what I needed.
Today I felt an intense connection with a book. From how I found it, to to words, to the ideas and emotions, it moves me. I sat on the bus, reading each word captivated by the feelings that resonated a mirror heart. Each word filled with vivacity and crude truth in sharp shards. in less than two pages, I had to shut the book. I was overwhelmed with a sense of sadness. I hurt for me. For what I had endured all this time. I hurt to see what I had willingly put myself through. I hurt for all the girls who have ever felt what I have felt. I hurt for the girls who, like me, thought they were the only ones. My heart was just filled with hurt and I wept uncontrollably for an hour. I was unaware of the passage of time, blinded by deep felt hurt. I have never felt something like that before.
Two states of just being utterly overwhelmed.
And somehow this song fits in somewhere within all that madness.. I dont know how yet.
Born to run, baby run like a stream down a mountainside
With the wind in my back I don't ever even bat an eye
Just know it was you all along who had a hold of my heart
But the demon and me were the best of friends from the start
Your writing on this one is really good. I'm almost in the moment here, This needs to be part of a larger book though as I feel left out of what she/you had "gone through"?
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