Puzzle Pieces Fitting :)

I love love love reading and trying new meditations :)
Especially when you stumble across worth while. I had been reading about Energy Healing Therapy all day. Determined to try it, I came home and in the hour my dad and my bro went out to eat, I put on some meditation music and began. The process was so cathartic. It was the first of many, I am well aware that the roots of my problem run deep. But it was an amazing step.
What I learned? The root root root is I fear being left. All the way from my infancy when my dad was hardly ever there and yet insisted on making me promises. I repeated that pattern through out my life. I dated guys that would leave. I created situations to make people leave all because of my fear of it. The reason I so desperately want to please people is because I don't want them to leave. The reason I want to be one up on everyone is because I feel like if I am good enough maybe they wont leave. The whole time I did this meditation and even now i have an acute pain right below my rib cage. The whole time I meditated i felt orange energy coming from it, I later learned that it was associated with fire, so that made sense.

Coming out of this trance, for lack of a better word it helped a lot. It brought up a lot of issues but I am sure that with time and meditation I will be able to work through them. I definitely need to clean out my energy. Last year has been repeating itself and that is unimaginable, where is the growth? My new years resolution, a little late but better than never is to clean out my chakras. Energy healing was potentially the most rewarding thing I have tried in a long time. In fact, I think I will continue after I finish this rant.

What I discovered:

But if your Navel Chakra is closed or out of balance, you are paranoid, fear others and can be easily hurt or controlled by someone else. You might also have an internal fear of being rejected by people. You may also have anger management issues, or you aren’t able to think in a rational fashion. You may also have no energy and don’t really care about anything.
In extreme cases it can even lead to diseases like diabetes, pancreatitis, arthritis, ulcers, and hypoglycemia or colon problems.


Lesson:


Everything falls into place. Everything happens for a reason, the universe is beautiful, just simply let it flow. I for one have a lot of growing to do but cant wait, for its the most rewarding journey........