GOOD.BYE.

see sometimes you just have to let things go.
This time, I dont feel any pain. It is FINALLY over, I am ready for new and better things. I think my body has left this place. I have found people that agree. i have someone with whom to start my journey with. The cable got cut... My dad put on a video, i todl him i would go watch it with him to keep him company, it was woodstock, about free love. I am ready to leave. To learn to experience. i have friends that want to join and I laugh. I have a good time, I learn and they learn. Aiwaska, I neeeeeeeeed to try it if the world is going to end!!! Sky dive!! This job was put in my way so i could conquer fears. Lets go!!!!! :D

As for the past, well its exactly where it should be... behind me. It made me Me and for that I am thanful. If it ever needs to be resolved, well it would be wonderful... maybe one day black and white may clear to grey and instead of people being impulsive they may think twice. But it is okay. We are all one. I wish him well, love and kindness. May love warm his heart and knowledge light his way may his energy vibrate in tune with the magic of the universe. I leave him in good hands, I like him in humanities hands, in loves hands, in the universes hands, in our one-ness's hands, in MY hands. .... The culmination, the irony, the melancholy and the irreversibility. If everything happens for a reason, well let there be a reason. Because this time I AM DONE. No turning back, and no turning around. Less than perfect ending but enough room to create a new beginning. I will take what is left and reconstruct.
After tonight it will be as if you didnt exist. Thank you for making it easier. It was over a long before. Goodbye. I wish you well, I wish you happiness but I wish  you maturity more than anything. I hold no resentment to you because it would only hurt myself. I forgive you even thought you dont think its your place to ask for forgiveness. Please forgive me too, for any harm I have caused you.
I will ALWAYs answer any question you ask me as honestly as i can, i promise. Deal? thats it. thats as far as THIS goes. Cause WHAT we feel...FELT, what emotional 5 dimensional love we felt, well its over. Now get ready for 3D doyel.. embrace yourself.
Sometimes the world connects and sometimes the world lets go. And right now the way the wind blows, my emotions overflow, but then come the rain, with the pitter patter, doesnt matter, ever flowing pain, of a  mark that still remains, engrained in sparks of memories, buzzing sweet like honey bees.  humming through the crunchly leaves, and nomatter what he always leaves.
so stay. this time change the pattern and make this pain go way.
for the worlds and the actions arent ever the same
but you claim that you like honesty
no you dont play the game
but you know its not the same
you changed
something that was magic
and made it almost tragic
so let me go
and leave it be
just engrave it in your memory
for now its gone and ill promise you
one day youll look and see it was true
but till then farewell and i hope you know
with you i really did let myself go
but if your couldnt see it
if all this time  you were blind
then something better
i am bound to find
leave me alone let me stray
its seems at the end
its better this way.